The Quarter Mile

My Face Is In Space from Tom Jobbins on Vimeo.

It's midnight now. I have my dad calling it a night. I have 24 years and 364 days worth of experience to share, to build up on. I have the faint wind breezing in from the South-facing window, and I am accompanied with thoughts, thoughts that just keep rolling in through the night.

I have learnt a lot. Humbled. Absolutely.

There have been instances when I was thrust into an unfair game, instances when the monster was unleashed from within and I had to kill a part of myself to make way for a better person. But I couldn't quite kill it. Well, tonight's the night I take a new birth. There is something relatively important about my stay on this world for two and half decades. I need to find that out.

There's still some time away. Although my chain of thoughts is being intermittently broken with congratulatory wishes from a few of my friends, I am not complaining. Only a handful remember your birthdays, let alone your existence. I am deeply sucked in through the days when others called the shots to my life, when their action changed my then present and now future, altered the way I approached people and categorically decimate whatever hope that I was left with. I became a beggar. But then beggars have nothing to lose, right?

The Good

• There's always room for Good - You can either sit on your own puddle of problems or make yourself find a way to get up and walk on. The choice is always with you. The situation cannot get any worse.
• You will have a Lesson with you - No matter the kind of people whom you bump into during the course of your life, there will always be lessons that you may/may not chose to learn. 
• Do good while you still can - There's never more a better time than to immediately rectify your drawbacks and work on them to emerge a better person who is capable enough to rocking through problems.
• Let Nothing Affect Your Belief - Never run after correcting problems with others. You will only receive hate. Have a set of core beliefs and stick by them. If someone has a problem, remember, they always know the door they walked in through in the first place.
• Help - It's always good to help others. But never treat anyone above you other than your parents. Help anyone in their bad times and don't judge them if they forget you in their good days. Remember, you control your actions.

The Bad

• Life and its Sense of Humor - Terrible. You would often feel like gut-punching the hell out of life often. However, the point is - there's no stopping to it. 
• Good friends will leave - As much as you don't want them to, the people whom you treasure the most will leave you for nothing. They will misunderstand you, hurt you and take you to be their step while they stomp on you to move ahead in their life. Don't brood. 
• Disappointments will galore - The things that you hold most sacred and have unflinching support for? They will crumble right before your eyes. People whom you expect a trifle amount of happiness from will take the pleasure of disappointing you.

It's has been an amazing run so far. I can't say that I have been disappointed because quite frankly, there are tonnes of things that I am glad took place. I am glad the bad happened, in all its glory. I am glad that I got new friends, better friends. Even though I admit that a permanent dent has been created, I think I can survive by not looking at them. 

I am thankful to everyone, who have shown how disappointed they have been as for me they don't exist anymore. I am just too busy with people who love me than to think over people who don't. 

Most important, I thank YOU, for reading through the blog and standing by. Your visits on this blog powered me to keep writing, no matter how good or bad. 

I celebrated my birthday not on the exact day, but three days before, by sharing a few smiles with rescued girls at an Orphanage-cum-school. It was different and I am yet to describe how happy I am. See the album! 

A Nightmare Untold

No. This cannot be a dream. It's too surreal, yet too real. I am able to see you, touch you, feel your tears on my neck, even the smell of your disappointment. No, this cannot be a dream. I...I have just met you. This is unfair. 

Yet. It's the truth. It's a Nightmare.  A nightmare untold. 

The Unburdened Lie

Sparks - Short Film from Jason Ho on Vimeo.

A lonely road greets the two of you as you head back. The suffocating heat isn't helping. Birds flying back to their home keep circling over their tree hopelessly to get some air under their wings. The dying Sun has the entire sky looking angry and you hope (hopelessly) for all this to get over with. The hand that holds you begins to tighten around your arms. You feel the words suddenly weighing heavy, heavier than the Summer heat that lingers in the air. 

I Still Remember You

A Story About Robots from Paramotion Films on Vimeo.

I still remember.

I tried forgetting you all this while. I met new people, found new hope, changed my entire self, a self that was created by you. I changed the way I met people, the way I saw them. I started living with complete strangers, just to find a new face to remember when I felt low, and on occasions when I was happy.

And all it took was a song to bring you back to me. Well, metaphorically.

The Life in Hurt

Tiger - Full Movie (Japanese subs) from Beaufort on Vimeo.

"This storm has gone past. Maybe it's will be alright for some time."

The petrichor of silence is all that you are left with after your thoughts rain down all night. The desperation isn't visible to everyone, anyone perhaps. Yet, inside you are burning with questions, with thoughts that are raring to turn your world upside down like a shipwreck in a storm. And you can't have your sails brought down. You have to move ahead.

Planning Something Special on Valentine's day?

It goes out without saying, this is one of those days when you really have the chance to impress upon your beloved. If you have been sorry about something (may be forgotten that birthday or missed out on that date), this is the best time to make a grand comeback. Valentine's day, unfortunately, has lost its true meaning in the maddening shitstorm called consumerism. However, if you are really planning to do something that will make your beloved feel special, then there are couple of things that you need to do.

Alone and Happy? Is that Even Possible?

BUVETTE — Airplane Friendship from Simon Wannaz on Vimeo.

You look around. You are walking along a deserted road. It's way past midnight and not a single soul is out there courageous enough to brave the cold. You hang on. The cold hasn't even hit its peak. It has to match up to the inside, after all!

There are some situations that just happen in your life. Situations that you can't have any control on. There are not many occasions when you can take a step that doesn't piss anyone off. And by this constant disappointment, sometimes self-inflicted, you slowly erode away to the point that nothing but just a mere reflection of the vegetative state of your self remains. You hang on to the dear thought that it will all go away. And the cold is merely setting in.

It's midnight. Time's ticking away.